One of the good things to come out of my divorce was the opportunity to do something I have always wanted to do, but never got around to doing.
I wrote a book.
It hasn't been published yet, or even submitted to an agent or publisher, even though I finished writing it several months ago. I'm working on that, but fear is getting in the way.
What is there to be afraid of when submitting a manuscript? Rejection with a capital R. You might pray about that, because if I never submit it, I will never know if it will be rejected.
In the meantime, let me tell you the story of how this book came to be written and you will see why I had to get divorced to write it.
About a year ago, I called my attorney for advice on a situation. She started our phone call with some words that were music to my ear: "Before we go on the clock..." Oooh, goody, a conversation with this amazingly intelligent person that I don't have to pay for! She then told me that she might be leaving her practice of law to write a book. Not so good, in my mind.
However, she continued, lately when she thought about the book, a devotional book for Christians who were going through a divorce, my name kept coming up. First, she somehow dreamed about me in connection with the book. Then shortly after that, while telling a friend about it, the friend brought up the fact that she had just discovered that I was one of my attorney's clients who had been in that situation. Finally, when she walked into the office that day, she had discovered that I was on her calendar for a phone appointment, even though she hadn't heard from me in months.
She wasn't sure why she was supposed to tell me about the book, and speculated that maybe I was supposed to be part of her prayer support or even offer her some ideas about what it's like to go through a divorce. However, she knew beyond the shadow of a doubt that she was supposed to tell me.
I instantly knew that this was a God-thing. To be sure, I asked her if she knew my academic background. She didn't.
I happen to have an MA in English. My emphasis was on teaching English as a second or foreign language, but while earning that degree, I taught freshman comp. I also had been teaching various writing classes at our homeschool enrichment group. And I had written for a website that no longer exists. I love to write. I also don't mind editing, so my first suggestion was that maybe I was supposed to help edit the book.
We agreed to pray about it, and then we went on the clock and discussed the issue I had called her about.
When I got off the phone, the book started writing itself in my head. Oh, how I longed to be the one to write that book, but this was my attorney's project, so I began to pray that God would show me my boundaries and enable me to stay within them. I have a tendency to take over on group efforts, so I knew I needed prayer.
A few weeks later, I talked to my attorney again. Much to my surprise, she informed me that she had been praying about the book, and she now knew that I was to write the book. Her job was merely to be the messenger to tell me to write it.
So I wrote the book.
Now to gather my courage and submit the book. Please pray for me!